crushed!!!

here i am being sick as ever...
weak and could not move anymore...
having someone like he in his own world...
ask him too many questions and make assumption will upset him....
is it hard for u to understand me...
is it?
im just tired to be like this
nothing to say anymore
just nothing!

for your entertainment!

i just dont know why...
but im loving this song....
eventhough some of you might not agree with me but hey...
i bet if you start listen to the song it would stuck in your mind just like me...
you should give it a try and listen to it...
i promise you it doesnt sound what of you guys thinking about him...
but this is what the industry meant by music bring us together...
btw hw is a talented singer as for me he bring his own identity along with him....
you should listen to it...

RUSSIAN ROULETTE...

hello
we meet again..
im in my hard times right now..
theres no words to decribes my sadness and depression.
im in my low point right now and just waiting for someone to pull the trigger...
i will be gladly if someone just shoot me in the head right now...
ill always put on a happy face just to pleased everyone else..
deep down inside...
if you ever heard about a song named RUSSIAN ROULETTE...
my situation just like it...... just waiting for someone to just shoot me...
everyone would be easily said be patient about it.... but what about me?
i just don't know how much longer i would keep on hanging on my just absorbing everything..
and frankly it is not easy for me to let it out..
i never felt so stupid in my life and just could not be in control anymore...
i never felt so small and so hurt by it..
the sad thing is everyday i cry but no one hear me...
im tearing up just by expressing this thoughts in my head..
i can't hold it any longer..

what a boring day!

bosan duduk rumah...
anyway i got to rest dough....
i still wanna go out..
but most of friends xda ka t kl dough...
wondring round...
anyway...
did much to say..
busy as i every be..
tired..
but glad everything is over..
peace y'all....
till again!

pyhscho....

ape masalah kau nie haa...
nak buat2 cter pasal orang...
bloody helll
stupid useless guy ever...
go mind your own bussiness la...
nak sibuk2 hal org...
if you are like pissed off with me...
just say so la....
nak libatkan org lain for what?
loook at yourself la...
what?
do u think you are the greatest among all ke sampai nak buat mcm tu and calling people that?
benda tu kecik je pun...
if you like can think like an ADULT...
you wont like be acting like that la...
please la ok...
stop like interfering and create story which are not logical in human being's mind ok...
and please la...
dun you have any better things to do then interfering other people bussiness...
by the way that is not your property if you claim it to be that way...
please la...
understand it properly....
x payah la nak menyusahkn orang lain.....

HUNT FOR KANCIL.....

tragedi melanda
(pengsan ayat ni ili hoi)
anyway..
i rase mcm like having really a awful day because da la i crk kije..
smua mcm nak x nak je..
mostly nak chinese girls..
dun know why..
itu lantak mereka la..
plus ada yang mcm sombong plak tu...
ish...
x kuase nak melayan..
atleast x bley ke nak cakap elok2...
HELLO!!!
that's not even your freaking store pun nak jd sombong mcm tu...
masalah lagi nie...
stress!!
tapi have you like got the experience yang u went to some branded store and like the sales person tu mcm have like this one look kat u yang mcm u can't afford to buy that brand??
HAVE YOU?
pengsan!!
i hate when people does that tau...
x ingin pun la nak beli...
have when people does that..
nie la die bukan bodo sombong tapi berlagak sombong..
haisy...
tgk..
da jauh da terpesong...
then ok la after penat facing the rejection of finding some part time jobs..
i was so stressed up then go hang out with my friend..
ok la on the way mau pulang ke rumah..
ada satu kete nie..
manual confirm...
naik bukit then turun balik....
2 kali ok...
mcm nie... i was driving mcm biase...
memang x expect la orang tu nak kebelakng...
then suddenly die kebelakang!!!
TWO TIMES!!!
i was so panic sbb mmg x expect yang that kancil..
by the way tu kete kancil...
nak kebelakng for two times..
owh yeah...
guess what that car hit me!!!
i cm !@#$$$$$%
abis la aku nie...
punye la kan hoping orang tu turun...
nie TAK!!!
terus je jalan...
nasib baik la xda pape...
tapi no plat la sikit je.....
hehehheeheh..
so kancil biru,.... i'll be hunting u!!!

sampai bile nak maju

kenape ada sesetengah manusia nie la kan
x tau la sape la kan
yang bijak lg x bley tahan la kan..
owh.. pandai kutuk orang..
asal org lebih sikit je
mule la buat macam2 la
jealous la..
x bley orang lebih sikit la
HELLO!!!
c'mon la ok
nie rezeki masing2 tau
ada yang kat atas ada yang kat bawah..
hidup nie mcm roda.. bukan nyer selalu senang je...
kalo mcm tu pelik la namenyer
tolong la ok...
buang la sikap nak cemburu rezeki orang nie..
jangan nak jadi merepek bley x..
nie smua da besar..
jadi la contoh yang TERBAEK! sikit kat youngsters nie...
jangan la ok bagi dieorg ikot perangai yang amat kolot lg durjana itu...
tlg la ok..
sedar la diri tu sikit...
nie cakap tah pape tah
nie x bley la ape la..
tlg la...
byk lagi benda la bley buat
toksah la nak dok pkr masalah nie...
x keje agaknyer...
whatever it is...
A MATURE ADULT WILL BE ACT LIKE HIS/HER AGE...
AND WEALTHYNESS DO NOT BRING ANY BENEFIT IF YOU DON'T USED IT WELL AND
WISELY!

drama drama drama!

hidup nie penuh sgt dgn "drama"
ada yang ok..
ada yang x ok.
ada yang sakit
yang shat
terlebih sihat pun ada..
knape terkeluarnya ayat manusia ini x pernah puas?
p/s: puas erti kate lain.. tu ada yang pkr lain nie ( GATAL!)
ape2 pun kte patut tanye diri nie
kemana mau pergi
ape yang nak dcapai
ape yang nak ada dalam mase akan datang?
nak kawin or single?
nak kaya @ sederhana?
nak senang atau susah..
fikir la sendri
ikot la badn n pemikiran masing2

a WISH upon a blog!

why do people change?
is it true that time makes people change?
is it really a fact or just a phase of words?
is it the tie of friendship just going to be end by ignoring each other?
is we become like this for somebody else?
why don't we settle it nicely?
and talk..
why must choose ignorance as a solution?
are you the type of person who appreciate precious time n memories?
why dont you..
as for me..
i do missed a lot of things in my past..
and frankly to say it is hard for me to move on..
mayb i need some time or mayb i just dont want to...
i wish thing will get back to as they were before..
but yet again LIFE!!
full with suprises!!
all i know is that i'm tired of it...
sometimes i think so hard sometimes it is just another part of me who simply dreaming!!
hahahahah....
but all i'm saying that if i was granted one wish
and what i wish for is that evrything wont be soooo awkward and different...
i wish everbody is happy and accept each other weaknesses..
no more drama.. tears.. fighting, arguing..
haisy...
just hope that it gonna end soon
and i mean Fast!

LOVE <3
elai

fed up.

why people are running away from me..
i miss alot of my best friends...
have some argument here and there but yet
we didn't come into a conclusion..
we just let it be..
but for how long???
i get fed up of this things..
makes me wonder if i had done anything that is so badly that i deserved to face this kind of fate..
i really miss my friends...
i don't hang out like i used too...
yesterday i think i sort off burst out in the open ( tooo much shisha)
i was like soo high until i could not remember what i was mumbling about..
today, i sort off not in the goood mood to do anything..
did not like to stdy, i get angry easily, get fed up...
and damn right i fed up..
i fed up with people's egonesss...
i fed up with people who then to get angry with just with a small things..
i fed up with people who then to be good but they are not...
i fed with all of it...
my goodness how could you be in this kind of situation where evry negative thought been released towards you....
WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVED THIS!!!!!!!
enough already......
stop thinking about yourself and if you want to do anything please try to put yourself in other people's shoe..
think for once how would they fell inside...
grow up...
please!

long way ahead!!

hey sape2 yang bace nie...
anyway...
sorry sbb x update..
sebab BUZY la lately nie...
masuk tmpt baru...
so agak la mcm hectic skrg nie...
pdhal nak final dah pun skrg nie...
huhuhuhu.....
skrg nie tgh kecut sgt la perut!
huhuhuhu...
wish me luck for dis sem k?