gara-gara nak renew passport..

the day before...
i have to renew passport...
sbb we are goin for a holiday..
so my lovely dad said...
"go n renew your passport"
so the day before i kena la nak amik gambar kan..
ok fine...
pg la mlm tu...
dah la dgn malam tu.. smua benda nak kena buat..
hantar ni la..
amik tu la ape
ok...
so the next morning..
i pg with my sis..
n ian n nell..
nell nak tukar her ic...
alang2 die pun ikot( ian on the hand saje je nak menyebuk n kacau org)
so ok..
nell buat ic- ian teman..
i pg buat passport..
then i go to the counter..
skali selamba aje that x tau la nak bgtau name ape...
nie gambr amik balik saya x nak gambar nie...
u know how fucking mad i am...
pdhal org ape...
then she ask for my ic..
then die ckp lg...
i x bley bace ic u..'
tlg buat baru!!!
what???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
r u kidding me???
dah la ramai i...
i mase tu mmg dah la maki org tu dah...
bodo!!!
stupid chip!!!
and the best part nie...
org tu bley tanye...
u tau x chip u x bley read???
HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DO I LOOK LIKE I KNOW WHY MY CHIP DIDN'T WORK????
selamba aje cakap...
u kena buat baru eyh???
pukimak la weyh...
then i pun mcm dah pissed off gler2...
then dgn x malunyer...
i went to ian n nell then i told everthing...
bodo!!!
stupid chip!!!!!
so i kena la buat....
everythingz!!!!
nasib baik i ada teman...
kalo x...
i'll be mad like hell....
bodo!!!
da la gmbr da cantik2 kena renew lg!!!
now my stupid ic is so freaking buruk n besar ok!!!
stupid ic...
stupid picture!!!!!
meyusahkan org!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
test la dulu before nak bg org pakai!!!
bodo!!! bodo!!! bodo!!!!
i almost give up my vacation bcause of this stupid ic!!!
lain kali test dulu the chip!!
jgn nak meyusahkn org....

bla bla...

i x tau la nak cakap ape skrg..
i'm in the mood where all i need is myself and
honestly...
i dun need anyone else...
sorry for all the troubles..
it just i need me...
only me...

hesh!!!

why is it making choices is so freekin hard!!!
bencinyer...
bler u dah elok2 ngn decision u, datang lagi satu masalah...
eeee....
y is it life is so complicated!!..
benci la jadi mcm nie...
better u be alone...
and duduk aje kt rumah without involving other people..
bencinyer!!
kang kalo da mcm nie kate anti-social plak...
huhuhuhuu...
you see what i mean?
x abis sATU2 masalah dtg...
kdg2 belum sempat nak tarik nafas..
dtg lg satu...
y is it so hard...
huhuhuhuu...
benci la...
penat and depressed...
hate my life...
bencinyer..
but i love dosh!!!!
cymel!!!
love u dosh!!

buying a baby rabbit

x tau la mane datang idea nie la kan..
tbe2 aje nak bela rabbit...
i dun know la..
mayb i felt lonely...
and i guess the cute little rabbit will accompany me kan...
dulu i had 3 of rabbits but they die..
mine which black and white
and the cool part is kaki die ada 3 aje...
the sad part is that i lupe nak bgi makan sbb mase tu kan i mcm benggong la kan..
kecik lagi what did u expect la kan...
i always depend kat my sister...
that's why la the rabbit die...
my sister was freeking mad at me...
i felt guilty la at that time...
sape x la kan...
since that incident, my mum ckp no more rabbit...
tapi tu cter mase kecik..
nie dah besar??
i'm trying to ask my mum whether i can have one or not...
wish me luck k?

A letter for jack...

dearest jack...
i'm so sorry for doing this towards u...
i bukan sengaja aje nak buat benda nie kt u..
u'll thank u later...
it's very hard for me to explain y i did this so suddenly...
actually i have been thinking about it for quite a while...
i buat nie bukan for myself..
but most of it for u..
mayb u don't get the picture yet..
but one day..
you will understand what am i trying to do...
i bukannyer nak ditch u mcm tu aje...
we could be friends it just so hard on me that
i takot the way i'm being friends with u
takot u hope on me...
i'm so sorry for doing this n posting the blog to u..
but i had no other choice...
i'm really sorry...
~ili~

my familia...

Family picture

that me the one in purple( yea la every year mesti lain dr yg lain)

my dad ckp baik tangkap gmbr kt masjid....

my mum and dad..

(phaez said they look cute together... i agree)

adinda sekalian

ili atira(left), ili amira(center, muke cacat abit), n iliyas ariefin(the "only" boy)

my besties

ian ebrizal and nelly...

farhan..

stop forcing me!!

ok...
here is a situation..
do u agree that we are not supposed to force someone to like other person..
right??
it is our choice to choose who we want to be love right?
x kesa la kalo u ckp that guy to baik and all....
it's about choice!
please ok...
stop forcing me...
i dun like it..
AND please ok...
stop pretending...
imagine u in my situation...
u bley la put on happy face and all...
i ok yang jd "mangse"...
please...
stop right now.....

I fall in love with dis guy

i dun know which one is better...
there's this song that really make me fall for him...
i mean seriously...
he is so sweet...
the song goes like this..
he alreaDY broke up with his gf...
(p/s: for me brake up is really shitty!!)
anyway..
he sanggup tu tgu the gf kt the corner of the street with her picture
and ask everyone if they penah jumpe that gurl...
the reason why the waited there because he said that is the first place they met each other..
so when that gurl wonder about him..
he will be at the first place they had met..
gler man..
he wait and waited for the gurl to show up..
and eventually
the gurl x show up!!!
seriously that gurl so stupid!!
he is like all over the news..
clearly she had move on and forget about that guy...
KESIANNNNYYYERRRRR......
i was like gler sweet mamat nie....
cair aje...
if someone do that to me..
i dun know what to do...
(well obviously i'm touched la kan)
hmmm....
anyway...
dude..
no worries man..
i'm all yours!!!
hahahahahahahahaha!!!!

raya!!

selamat hari raya...
well...
actually it's been a week that muslims celebrating raya...
and raya...
raya...
what could i say more??
duit raya?
ok la...
so far murah la rezeki tahun nie..
amin...
first day raya...
satu family beraya sakan..
pgi2 aje dh bgun and excited for raya...
then go visiting relatives..
quite fun actually..
makan..
haiyo!!!
major problem skrg nie..
kena control gler2...
so far x da la sakit perut teruk2 mcm last year...
then later that evening..
pg visit kubur arwah my aunty and my tok...
quite syahdu la actually...
then ptg tu pg rumah my dad..
i dun know what to say...
it's quite diff there..
tgk katil arwah pun mcm ingt2 lagi kt die...
yea la...
baru berapa bulan aje kan arwah pergi...
quite diffrnt la..
i pity to my dad...
cdey la when u look at him that u already knew that he misses arwah...
nothing much happen to me..
quite simple and nice...
no drama and sickness that i felt dis year...
anyway HAPPY RAYA!!

BBQ NIGHTS!!!

on the end of august if i'm not mistaken..
i had a bbq party kindda off isshh at my frenz or he like evryone clld " my husband"
because everywhere i go he's with me.
so basically yeah..
ok back to the party..
i had fun on that day.. where we sang, eating.. laughing.. eating again.. makan lg dan lg.. dan gelak lg..
owh..
and lastly we took some pictures.. not some.. alot!! and dis guys yang sgt bijak itu.. i dun know what is wrong with them.. masuk air kot due to mandi pool lame sgt..
took pictures like jumping around.. everyone had the best time of their life(xda la life.. saje nk lebih2) but it was so fun..
cymel2 aje smua.

and yesterday also i had bbq nights...quite fun but x ramai la jugak tapi best...
i had fun!!
i got to meet my friends yang dah lame x jumpe... konon!!
hahaahahaha

if only you know about this..

i know it's hard for u to make decision when u are caught in the middle...
i know it's hard for u to choose between the reality and someone that u know,
deep down in your heart that people would blame for u loving her..
i know it's hard for u to choose between your friends and her..
i know how painful it is when u have to let someone u go for another person..
i understand how it feel when u just have to accept the faith of life..
i know how it feel when u have to fake urself that things are fine
i know that you are afraid to take the risks of losing your friends and your love ones..
i know how it feels when you have to watch her with someelse..
i know how it feels when when your intention is not to hurt her..
i know how it feels when she just give up on u...
i know how it feels when she decided to push you away from her life...
i know how it feels when she also just have to pretend that she's ok with the situation..
and i know also that she badly hurt inside..
i know also how it feels when she have to put on a smile when the facts is she falls into a deep black hole..
i know that she's tired of pretending anymore...
i know that she was badly crush and hurt just because of u..
i know that she doesn't understand how you could easily forget about her..
and...
i know that she still cared about u..
she just letting you go because of you..
she doesn't want you to loose your friends and especially your loved ones..
she doesn't want you to feel tired of pretending anymore..
she doesn't want you to feel confused and felt like a burden for loving her..
she just want you to feel happy with your life...
she just want to watch you smile and laugh again..
for her is more than enough of just to watch from far away..
she doesn't want you to cry anymore because she knows how painful it is..
she's glad that for knowing you and especially loving you
all she want to said is just..
if only you know about this...

happy bithday ili!!!

when it comes to a new year
the year that i waited with full excitment n kesabaran yg teramat sgt.....
adalah SEPTEMBER!!!
september is my birthday..
on the 11th to be specific....
yea... 11 september n xda kena mengena ngn runtuhnyer bangunan WTC...
and tu bukan birthday present frm sape2 la...

ok back to the birthday celebration..
i celebrate it with of course la kan my friends..
but was sad because my close friends xda...
huu.. huu..huuu....
miss mereka.. mereka...
ok...
and then bler dh smp 12 o'clock...
suddenly...
kwn2 saye yg bijak lg berguna itu.....
MENYANYI birthday song infront the whole people in that restaurant...
tau x betapa malunyer nk ltk muke nie....
malu gler deyh...
but frankly jarang orang nyanyi for me mcm that night...
but it was fun!!!
huuuu......
and friends also sang me a bithday song..
only it was on the phone la...
tapi i ske la....
and at the end of the day i got a birthday present frm a friend of mine
which at that time...
he was in DUNGUN...
he gave me...

BOBO

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ILI....

fear of computers!

aaa.. yesh..
computers...
some people said that computers is an intelligent "devices"...
well for me is NOT!!!
it's so complicated and menyusahkn org....
damn i hate computers...
it just a simple button just save that documents...
suddenly...
owh ya i decided to delete ur documents...
(which i have submit day after tomorrow)
i was freaking panic....
and started to call anyone...
i feel like my world going to end...
lucky i had backup...
see...
it's prove that computers are not intelligent and full with viruses...

salutation!

This is me...

where i can share my experience to the viewers who have the time to read my blog....

"ching ching"

nothing much i can say about it...

all i can say that we as human being have to make choices in our life...

and i mean a lot of choices...

some say it hard n some say it easy as a b c...

if u ask me...

life??

have pros and cons where it is so complicated...

and a very hard... and stupid... and sometimes make u sick....

but however a very descent person told that all of this matter it just colours of life......