if only you know about this..

i know it's hard for u to make decision when u are caught in the middle...
i know it's hard for u to choose between the reality and someone that u know,
deep down in your heart that people would blame for u loving her..
i know it's hard for u to choose between your friends and her..
i know how painful it is when u have to let someone u go for another person..
i understand how it feel when u just have to accept the faith of life..
i know how it feel when u have to fake urself that things are fine
i know that you are afraid to take the risks of losing your friends and your love ones..
i know how it feels when you have to watch her with someelse..
i know how it feels when when your intention is not to hurt her..
i know how it feels when she just give up on u...
i know how it feels when she decided to push you away from her life...
i know how it feels when she also just have to pretend that she's ok with the situation..
and i know also that she badly hurt inside..
i know also how it feels when she have to put on a smile when the facts is she falls into a deep black hole..
i know that she's tired of pretending anymore...
i know that she was badly crush and hurt just because of u..
i know that she doesn't understand how you could easily forget about her..
and...
i know that she still cared about u..
she just letting you go because of you..
she doesn't want you to loose your friends and especially your loved ones..
she doesn't want you to feel tired of pretending anymore..
she doesn't want you to feel confused and felt like a burden for loving her..
she just want you to feel happy with your life...
she just want to watch you smile and laugh again..
for her is more than enough of just to watch from far away..
she doesn't want you to cry anymore because she knows how painful it is..
she's glad that for knowing you and especially loving you
all she want to said is just..
if only you know about this...