Illusions Makes Wonders

salam ramadhan...

2011-08-11T09:40:00.000-07:00

salam...

sorry sgt2 lame x update

been busy with work lately...

had buka puasa n kerja byk lately....

so far bulan puase

had been really challenging....

mmg btol2 sgt mencabar....

tu la org ckp bulan puase byk sgt dugaan...

abah just go back from ONDO...

but he's planning nk pg sana lg...

and will be back before raya....

*i think..

so far i got bonus...

alhamdullilah rezeki lebih lately....

finally dpt rasa mcm mane nk raya....

everything i uruskan sendiri...

baju dah siap!! ahahahahahhaha

this year 4 pasang saja...

*tapi mama lgi la 6 pasang....

my sister so far... x bley budget lebih....

insyaAllah nak bertunang next year!!!

* yeay! i can have the room all by myself...

brother pun dah nk habis blaja...

tggl la saya srng2 kan....

ahhahhahahah......

this year raya is a bit exciting sbb ada "orang baru"

raya kt kg skali... IM EXCITED!!!!

weeeee.....

sape? nnti la kte share okayh?

so far me?

busy with work...

i have great great people that loved me....

and understand my work...

im excited nk masuk balik to school....

nk score lg!!!

*berjuang habis-habisan!!

insyaAllah DL!!....

* wah! confident saja!....

so yeah..

i have to sleep...

got event tomorrow that have to attend

anyway..

SALAM RAMADHAN!!

hanya dia......

2011-06-10T12:42:00.000-07:00

i just don't know... tapi bler dengar lagu nie... mesti teringat kat dia.... so yeah.... sgt sesuai la lagu nie dengan die....

http://youtu.be/jssAJes8_wI

who is he? let's it be remain as a mystery for now okay? :)

2011-05-29T05:30:00.000-07:00

better stay silent that doing nothing... it's for the best...

dun know... dun care...

and certainly dun give a damn about it....

3 nasihat Rasullullah kepada umatnya dalam kesusahan...

2011-05-10T13:44:00.000-07:00

alhamdulillah...

itu saje yang ili mampu nk ckp pada mase nie...

so far kejadian hari tu memang dah bukak mata n telinga ili

yang ili dah lupa pada Yang Esa..

alhamdullilah die sayang dkt ili and nak ili kembali ke pangkal jalan...

insyaAllah....

kalo bley x nak la recall balik... bg ili ape yang jadi itu ada hikmahnya..

selepas kejadian hari tu yang buat mummy risau sgt kt ili...

die suwo ili bace buku nie...

bagi ili memang sgt2 menolong ili...

mmg buku nie sgt2 bagus dan disebabkan buku ini...

ili sedar mane ili skrg di sisi Nya...

berbalik kepada cerita nie...

ada 3 nasihat yang Rasulullah pesan kat umat die apabila ditimpa kesusahan..

1. Raihlah apa yang bermanfaat bagimu

2. berdoa dan minta pertolongan kepada Allah

dan no 3. jangan bersikap lemah

ili memang betol2 pegng apa pesanan nabi ni...

dan alhamdulillah ili kuat skrg nie...

tidak la terlalu kuat tapi hanya kuat di sisi Nya

maaf la kalo skrg nie, mcm dah jd islamic sikit tpi bagus sebenarnya...

bg ili skrg hanya positive yang ili amik iktibar...

yang negative tu ili tak boleh nak control...

and kalo ili sudah takdir ili...

ili terima sbb hanya Allah yang tahu apa yang terbaik untuk ili....

dalam nie jugak ili memang bersyukur dengan keadaan ili sekarang...

exam pun jawab okayh... focus tu ada la skrg drpda dulu....

biarlah ili focus kat study dulu...

sapa x nk ada orang dgn kita tapi ili sendiri rase ili x mampu nk focus kt dua benda dalam mase yang same... faham kan?

hehehehe tapi ape2 hari nie sebenarnyer last paper untuk semester satu...

sudah tutup dah tirai untuk semester satu...

ili doa sgt2 dpt keputusan yang baik....

insyaAllah...

mane la tau sem 2 nnti ada la sikit perubahan...

doa2 kan la yeah?

tapi ape2 pun nak thanks kt Mr A sbb ajak keluar td...

walaupun sekejap aje... tapi dpt jugak lepas gian nyanyi...

walaupun suare x sdp...

hehehehhe

siap lg Mr A bg video td...

die tjuk die nyanyi.... ahahahahha dua lagu plak tu....

to Mr A... what i said in the car just now i really meant it...

and you know who you are and you never get tired of encourage me and helping me...

i'm really grateful....

kami dah lame x jumpe... ili ada perasan perubahan yang drastik dkt die td... comel sungguh... :)

ahahahhahah

insyaALLAH kalo ada mase lgi ili cerita lg ok....

tapi skrg nie... kena la simpan dulu.....

kena slow and steady....

die pun ckp td....

ahahhahaha......

ok la dah nk subuh dah pun....

goodnite world....

assalamualaikum....

the pain

2011-04-20T03:44:00.000-07:00

what is my feelings towards the pain...

yes it is too much now...

dah 2 hari menanggung sakit nie... i can't barely walk..

yesterday is the hardest as i can't stand long enough and even nk duduk pun kena letak bantal kt blkang...

abah ckp kena pakai tongkat...

ptg td pun pg mkn ngn lili pun gagah kan diri jugak... itu pun tempang sebelah...

nak pg clinic... tapi mama ckp urut dulu...

td mama tlg urut..

and god!!!!!!!!!! SAKIT GLER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! brape kali sepak mama... (sorry ma)...

seriusly x bley nak handle dah sakit nie...

mlm semalam x bley tdow... i think lps i mkn pain killer then baru la i bley tdow.. itu pun i think i slept at 4 then i woke up at 8 sumthing....

not healthy yes i know... i can't stand it any longer...

bler nk stop nie....

mama ckp worst come to worst i kena straight pg hosp...

which i mmg mengelak.. trauma la pg hosp.. lg pun nk exam dah nie...

x nak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wish i would be ok yeah? thanks....

daaa....

setiap kejadian ada hikmah die

2011-04-16T22:20:00.000-07:00

syukur sgt2 skrg nie i makin tenang...

and syukur jugak after kejadian tu, Tuhan dah bukak dah mate and telinga ili sape yg kawan and sape yang bukan.

tak perlu la rasenyer nak ckp kt cnie.. x manis kan..

tapi x pe lah... ili serah smua kepada yang Maha ESA..

mayb skrg mase ili dkt bawah.. and mase dieorg kt atas tapi kte x tahu smp bler kan?

anyway.. ili bersyukur sgt mase ili kt bwh nie, ada yang bg semangat n sokongan kt ili..

mama pesan ari tu: dalam hidup kte nie, x smua benda yang kte nk kte akan dpt, and jgn kte memaksa benda yang x nk kt kte, ili rase ili faham kot maksud mama.. x pe lah.. bia aje lah ok..

so far skrg study ok sgt, x da la blur lg, test pun alhamdulillah baik sgt2.. nak sgt dpt DL, adik pun dpt good result mase finals die... nk jugak mcm my siblings... smua dpt DL,.. heheheheh....

tapi tu la.. kdng2 nk berubah untuk kebaikan kte terpakse berkorban benda yang lain... mayb ada lah hikmah die kenapa Allah jdkan mase skrg nie mcm nie... kan. tapi x pe mesti ada hikmah diesebalik nie..

x pe as long as ili ada die, ili akan ok... :) dah janji dah ngn die! THANK YOU! :)

selamat ulang tahun...

2011-04-14T09:22:00.000-07:00

tadi mase nak tggu mase nak ke class... me and nasy were listening to this song.. terus i teringat lagi kat die u... mcm mana nie... i try you.. sungguh i try sgt.. tapi malangnyer tak boleh.. tapi org ckp kte kena cube dulu kan you baru kte x tahu.. and mayb nie cara Tuhan nk duga i untuk jadi lebih kuat and kembali dkt ngn die kan you? i sebenarnyer simpan lagi u 'harta" yang die bagi dkt i.. i tau i dah janji ngn you x nk lagi dah simpan brng2 die.. tapi kan you sebenarnyer banyak sgt u i simpan lg..

tapi harta yang paling berharta nie mmg i x bley buang.. itulah janji die dkt i... you.. you nak tau x kalo i bgun pagi.. i kena bace dulu harta i...i tau i x sepatutnyer buat mcm tu.. tapi kan you, kalo i x bace harta i you..i x larat nk buat ape2 pun u... i x jadi positive smua you... jd u jgn mare eyh you.. i kena mcm nie.. tu aje la yang buat i kuat u hari2...

you nak tau x.. kalo i rindu kat die kan you.. i bace.. kalo i stress pun i bace.. i tau i x sepatutnyer mcm nie.. tapi itu aje care you untuk i puaskan hati i u.. i xda sape i nk luahkan rase i.. smua org mcm tak faham...you... hari tu, i text die.. tapi respon die.. x pe lah you, kte x yah cter la ok.. biar i aje yang tahu ok? mase tu sedih mmg sgt2 sedih... tapi i pasng jugak lagu i ni n i bace "harta" i balik.. then i rase i tertidow kot u... tapi i ada bace satu article nie... die ckp kalo org yang sabar nie nnti ganjaran die besar.. jadi x pe la you kte sabar same2 la ok...

ada jugak orang yang cakap i nie mmg buang mase i you, tapi bg i kan, i x buang mase pun... nie lah care i u... i sebenarnyer mmg x nk tulis pun you kat sini.. tapi i x tau la knape tbe2 i tergerak hati nk cerita smuanya kt cini.. mayb da reason jugak kan you.. tapi x pe lah kan..

td pun mase i tgh baring2 dgn nasy, baru first time i tjuk kat die.. nie lah harta i... i refer kt lagu nie ngn harta i.. nasy tgk i atas bwh... die mcm pelik dgn i.. then die ckp kt i.. ptg nie kte pg taman ok. i pun mcm ok.. then i nmpk nasy nnges... i tanye die knape die nnges.. die ckp die cdey... i senyum aje la...

i tulis nie bukan i nk buruk2 kan die u.. i nk share dgn you aje nie.. mane tau nnti i x sempat nk share dgn u lagi kan.. so nie la peluang die ... kan. tapi x pe lah u... kte sabar lagi ok... x lame pun lagi ok...

ok la u.. i nk tdow lah.. dah lame x tdow lame2.. i cpt letih skrg nie.. i pun x tau knape...

you sorry eyh i dah lame x cerita kt u.. i busy la u.. nie baru free sikit aje...

ok good nite you....

I Never Told You Lyrics- Colbie Caillat

2011-03-24T13:04:00.000-07:00

this is all lies and fake.....

2011-03-24T12:56:00.000-07:00

yes i miss everything about you...

do you know that i dream't about you straight for the last three days..

how could you do this to me...

i was fine before this....

i'm learning not to be around you even though it is hard for me to put a happy face..

i am alone here...

i got no friends... how could you do this to me...

how could you took away my friends and left me all alone...

thanks alot....

seriusly thanks alot for open my eyes...

you know what

i dah x nk hope ape2...

i serah smuanya kepda yg Esa.. die lagi mengetahui

mcm mane sakitnyer hati i.....

no more hope for me on you guys happiness...

sikit aje i nk pesan...

satu hari nnti u akan rase mcm mane i rase skrg nie....

yea mmg i doa... tapi i doa hanya Yang Esa aje yang tahu...

Lady Antebellum - Things People Say (music video)

2011-03-20T11:02:00.000-07:00

just things that people said: each and ever single day....

true meaning...

2011-03-12T03:28:00.000-08:00

For all the years that I've known you baby

I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold

(didn't you say)

If there's a problem we should work it out

So why you giving me the cold shoulder now

Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl

(tell me)

Ok I know I was late again

I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan

But why are you making this drag on so long

(i wanna know)

I'm sick and tired of this silly games

(silly games)

Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame

It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors

That's when you turned and said to me

I don't care babe who's right or wrong

I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down

What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down

Now it's, too late, to turn it around

I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry

I guess this time it really is goodbye

You made it clear when you said

I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes

But never thought that things would turn out this way

Cause I'm missing something now that your gone

(I see it all so clearly)

Me at the door with you inner state

(inner state)

Giving my reasons but as you look away

I can see a tear roll down your face

That's when you turned and said to me

I don't care babe who's right or wrong

I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down

What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down

Now it's, too late, to turn it around

I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry

I guess this time it really is goodbye

You made it clear when you said

I just don't love you no more

Don't say those words it's so hard

They turn my whole world upside down

Girl you caught me completely off guard

On the night you said to me

I just don't love you more.

Rain outside my window pouring down

What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down

Now it's, too late, to turn it around

I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry

I guess this time it really is goodbye

You made it clear when you said

I just don't love you no more

by craig david.

massa event!

2011-01-22T11:43:00.000-08:00

today i had a very tiring day.

literally like the whole day i have to attend this pro gramme with basically from the new students of part one and part three..

the day starts of i think around 8 something

but of course i woke up late..

and when i arrived there the event had started

first by the dean's welcoming us the new students

then followed by some other facilitators

then with the is not air condition.. the hall becomes stuffy and basically all of us started to become restless...

then followed by the rukun kenegaraan or something..

im basically like half asleep

then we went off for a break to pray then we start our Explorace...

i was in group 6.. and it's called KENcang!!

at first i thought it was kindda like what.. then as we go through to every check point then i'll know who is who..

and we started to become close..

however during the last check point we got disqualified as we could not finish the race as we do not agreed to their penalties

which are:

1. you have to left one of your teammate ( not gonna happen)

2. you have to surrender to responsibilities ( we have to carry 2 eggs and i am one of the keeper!)

3. your group leader will have to stay behind( are you crazy!)

and so that's why we dont agreed to the rules as we had stick to our decision that we want to finish the race together..

and the result is;

WE WON!!!!!

we got the price for the best corporation team!!!!!

ahahaahah... then we took some pictures

and i swear to goD there's like flying flour everywhere and eggs and water..

luckily i managed to escape from that!

ahahahahaha..

i had fun!

SO GO KENCANG!!!!!

is in peace

2011-01-16T09:42:00.000-08:00

dear you,

i am not mad at you anymore,

or angry at you anymore,

i just get the idea why are you avoiding me

and breaking up with me,

it just after the time and space that you had given to me

i finally realise that it's all for the benefits of myself to be realise

what the damage that i have done..

i am not going to say that i'm sorry

but rather to say thank you for making me realise..

hey, who knows breaking up is a good thing for you to start notice your own weakness,

in god's will i shall take the time

that i needed to change,

prehaps it could be for the future

so thank you again for teaching me....

insyaAllah we will be meet again

"in order to lose the balance, you need love to keep it balance"= from eat, pray love

papa love cats more than me

2011-01-15T10:00:00.000-08:00

today woke up late...

having some eye sore....

and also ulser under my tough!

sakit.....

then my friend khairi call me up and ajak hang smua...

so bgun and bukak computer dulu...

check ada email ke x from my lecturers....

then still malas-malas lg nie... go drink sekejap...

main-main ngn my cats sekejap...

owh wait bukan main pun.... BULI dieorg sekejap...

tarik-tarik ekor... baling-baling dieorg

NO la i was kidding...

gler kena jerit ngn my dad

and YES my dad...

for some reason die lagi sayang kucing-kucing ini dr saya.......

tau x smlm.. i baru balik from UNI and it is quite late la jugak..

hujan nie basah habis( x da basah habis)

hehehehehe....

masuk-masuk je my dad paggil

punye la hoping he would say...

i dun know....

how are u? atie baru balik ke? dah mkn dah?

but no!!!....

he ask if the cats are outside or not...

ada ke...

then abah ckp...

kalo nmpk kiki... bg die masuk.. sejuk die kang tdow dkt luar tu....

hujan nieyh... kesian die...

cheh! kucing yang die tanye...

org balik nie dr s.alam nie x nak tanye... huhuhuhuhuuhuhhuh

so anyway.. lateer dat night

kiki ngade-ngade la kan...

buat- mcm letih tdow kt luar...

sort of mcm mengadu kt my dad..

abah pun alaaa kesian kiki nie.... siap amik gmbr lg n usap-usap die...

me memberi pandangn yg sinis terhadap kuciing itu...

kurang hasam btol kiki....

haaa...

smbung balik...

then when i was getting ready nk kuar today...

my dad pun nk kuar...

then smpt lg tau pesan kt i...

bg mkn kucing2 nie...

byk2 sikt... nnti lapar dieorg nie.... air tu tukar...

jgn x tukar...

mengade-ngade btol kucing-kucing nie...

pdn la masing-masing bdn naik....

kalo my dad x da...

xda la dieorg nk balik...

tpi mama jugak yang best....

jgn bg kiki naik atas!

tetapi kiki tetep buat dek aje and terus tdow dkt katil mama...

hahahahaahaha...

kiki mmg mcm tu...

die ada big boss back up die...

hahaahahahahah.....

x bley la nk buat ape...

diam aje la....

Katharine McPhee - Say Goodbye

2011-01-14T09:59:00.000-08:00

hope one day i'll be able to say this

thank you note:

2011-01-14T09:47:00.000-08:00

here again i would say:

THANK YOU TO YOU

mama and abah:

thank you for giving a life which i could not imagine

along and adik:

thanks for the years and argument and colours of life

ian:

babe thank you for being a friend.. supportive friend and my twins

effa:

thank you for ur support to get me wake up in the morning... and listen to me

hanem:

thank for caring about me... and COOKED for me...

atif:

thanks you being a brother to me.. and advise me!

faiz:

thank you for your time.. watching a movie with us.. i really had fun

aby:

terima kasih sbb ada ngn ili.....

dath:

thank you for cheering me up the other day....

AND LASTLY

jack:

thank you so much.. i hope you will be strong and find someone who really love you more than i do...

ladies day's out

2011-01-12T16:59:00.000-08:00

Had the best time of my life last night...

we had our ladies night outhing!!!! (ting! ting!)

we went to catch up a movie

well since it was wednesday

(tpi xda la murah mane pun)

so yang pergi me, myself, and i..... effa, phaez , n anem....

so we went to sunway...

go and watch the guilever's traveler( btol ke eja guilever nie)

so anyway...

well, let me tell you about this movie....

IT WAS HILLARIOUS!!!!!

there's like 4 of us.... dah la duduk mcm kt bwh2...

(we masuk la lmbt... sbb pg mkn kt popeye's)

-ehem2 the manager sumpah cute ok.!!!!

ladies! go to the popeye's at sunway and cari la manager die ke or supervisor die...

sumpah the four of us like ske gler manager or supervisor die...

so yeah we entered to the cinema

and we laughed like x ingt dunia ok...

lgi la kan phaez was laughing like mad...

me tooo....

tpi i perasan one time la...

i think the four of us yang gelak-gelak kuat ok....

smua org mcm senyap

cmon man!! it's a funny movie!

enjoy! lantak la

tpi i perasan one thing that

there's a group of chinese people behind me...

dieorg start gelak sbb tgk kteorg gelak ok....

i like the word potomus...

lawak die bodo gler ok....

seriusly,....

so yeah when the movie habis....

i think everyone mcm pandang-pandang ok kat kteorg....

ok malu sekejap...

the we bumped into some friends...

chit chat sekejap...

then we go minum at hassan!

melepaskan mengidam si effa yg nk minum teh ais strawberry..

ok sambung balik la plak session yg HOT !

dari pukul 11 smp la pukul 1 ok...

beborak bagai smua...

x stop

kesian anem... asyik kena buli aje ngn kteorg,,,,

byk kali salah ckp....

hahhaahahaha

effa and phaez cerita pasal experiences dieorg mase practical

i think there's this one story that effa told me

psl org kena death sentences

yang kesiannyer dis guy family expect that the defendant to be release

Ya Allah kesian ok...

the according to effa: the jugde found the def guilty for commiting a murder

i sumpah ok.. kesian sgt....

nak nanges pun ada...

she said that paling kesian dkt the mother...

ish.... kesian la....

then we borak-borak lg...smp kul 1...

best best best!!!

ngeee :) me likey!!!

til then

elai..

2 days 2 nightmares

2011-01-05T07:43:00.000-08:00

Day 1

i slept over at effa's

we chit chat all night long

which effa blame me for her unfamous blog " small finger"

so anyway

effa already fall asleep and i was alone until around 3 ish (i guess)

so yeah

mate dah sepet so i just tdow saja lah...

so as then i was doozzing of and fly off to the lala land

i dreamnt a ghost

YES! momok!!!!

all i can think of is the thingy(momok)

was tall and black

and he keep on approaching at me

as i move backwards

the thingy comes forward

UNTIL..... (dum dum dum)

i heard a huge BANG!!!!

yes it was loud like someone or some car crashed!

so yeah

i pun terjage la (of course)

takot someone break in the house or it could be anything right?

i kejut kan effa

" effa bunyi ape tu"( i think tu la yg i tanye)

then effa pun mamai ckp

iron board tu jatuh la beb.....

then azan subuh

but the thing is the ironboard ada dkt between two closets

well we shall leave it that way ok?

soooo

day 2

i slept over at sis's house...

after dinner with my peeps at williams

somewhere in damansara i guess

where the portion was huge man

luckily we had the boys to finish it up for us

but haziq ask us to finish up some drinks then we could go back home

while waiting for everyone to finish up their drinks

we chit and chat here and there

so anyway back to the main point here

(melalut jauh dah-bak kate hanem)

i slept over at the sofa

sdey gler tdow dkt sofa

but it was so comfortable

i could not remember when i eventually fall asleep

so yeah

i dpt mimpi lg...

and this time it is quite funny

i could remember that i come down the stairs and my mum

said there's someone datang merisik

me: uh? who

mama: no need to know... everything dah settle just.. preparation had been made

me: sape?

pengsan btol mimpi nie

i still remember that on the day yg nak kena nikah

i ran away from home

yes lari

(sgt dramatic kan)

lari smp jatuh-jatuh bagai

and it was rainning

habis luka kt kaki smua

and suddenly

there this car with him on it

(yup him)

come to the rescue!

so i pun masuk la kereta tu....

baik sgt die dlm mimpi tu

didnt say a thing

just hold my hand and rub my face

i know that by looking at his face i am safe (:( )

but suddenly

the car met with an accident

and hilang everything

i sedar-sedar dah subuh and

im sweating like mad

risau sungguh pasal mimpi tu

hopefully nothing will happen to him

if it was me then it is fine

dont let it be on him

aminnn

till then

elai

L I S T

2011-01-05T06:47:00.001-08:00

here are something which i want to do (just don't know when where)
1. skydiving
2. snorkeling
3.rock climbing
4. learn how to drift
5. be in and drive F1 car!
6. fly an aeroplane
7. trip to aussie with peeps
8. backpackers to europe countries
9. ride a superbike
10. fishing at the open sea!
11. bungy jumping
12. produce my own movie and book
13. be in two different countries at the same time
14. buy a property
15. be a role model for the kids
16. cycling
17. practical at new york ( yes i want it so bad)
18. renovate the room
19. ride a mpv
20. have a great dinner with my love ones! in caprice or maldives

new year new fac new bf???

2011-01-03T11:04:00.000-08:00

today official dah jd bdk2 messcom

ok la.. for far class x banyak tpi lame around 3 hours mcm tu

and then today xda buat ape2..

khamis baru ada perjumpaan

td dtg cnie lambt... so skip ada meeting

then later go lunch with effa and smua2..

habis gossip segala keluar

hahahahahahaha.....

had fun then smua roomates ok...

kolej ok aja...

and so far my illness pun ok..

nie tahap bley control lg....

tpi ok la kot

so anyway it's 3 am already..

effa is asleep...

i pun ok la letih sikit aje...

(padahal mate dah sepet gler)

mama excited about my elective subjects

sumpah i x tau mana nk pilih...

haiyo!

confused

kteorg smua excited about rabu nie

ada la plan somewhre...

best2

ok la shall keep you update about the trip!

hahahaahahah

nite peeps!

2011~!

2011-01-01T23:05:00.000-08:00

wow! it's 2011 already
cepatnyer setahun dah pass by...
dlm setahun nie pun BYK benda yang jd dkt myself
celebration for new year?
no la.. just stayed at home that new year eve's...
accompany my parents(anak baik kan)
hahahaha...
then abah ajak pg tgk fire works! so yeah pg teman die dengan mama
before nak keluar rumah abah dah pesan..
abah:"girl pg tukar seluar"
me: x nak la abah.. sape nak tgk pun(dengan confident keluar dgn seluar tdow colour pink ada gmbr teddy bear)

bler dah sampai kt tempt tu
amik kau!! ramai nyer umat weyh...
so ape jd?
tgk dr dlm kete sudah!
hahhahahaahah
mama confident pakai kaftan je keluar....
then abah... jom pg minum!
haa??? pakai seluar nie?
sanggup balik rumah tukar seluar n lpk minum dgn abah n uncle jiran
we cter pasal bola....
mcm2 la
smp la pukul 2....

balik mama dah muncing je muke
hehehehheeh tu la x nak ikot lagi....

im ok so far... ada la naik n turun die...
kdng2 tu terlebh emo plak kan.. tpi atie nie manusia.. mmg harus ada perasaan mcm tu...
kan?

pagi 01.01.2011
bgun lewat lg...
Allah...
bising mama, buat breakfast nasi lemak... best...
then we pg pavi.. jalan2 smua
ian came by later n baught ada satu jar of homemade sweets...
ok la price die.. tpi sdp!!!
have fun yesterday borak2... jalan-jalan...
seronok!

then malam tu pg M.O
stay there for a night...
played card! amik2 gambar smua....
then had a very good conversation....
dgr lagu smua...
best gler!
but end up x tdow mane pun...
can't sleep owh....

but anyway.. that's what i did on the 1st of jan 2011....
heheheheheheh
hanya jujur
elai

suatu masa

2010-12-30T10:33:00.000-08:00

a very historic song for me
he once listen to this song during the early days
what is wrong with me
i taught im strong enough..
butafter read the previous letters that he wrote to me...
tears pouring out...
im not prepared for this...
what had happened to me and us
it still hurt and sad..
it's hurt...
put on a happy face just to pleased everyone...
not to make everyone worried...
eveeryday i cried

" dengarkanlah lagu and panggilan ku untuk mu"
(wish you would hear it...)

"angin lalu kau sampaikan, rasa rindu yang membara kepada nya"
(please do....)

it hurt to see and when through this...
when you said im strong person
no i am not how would be so sure?
i cried listen to this song when we watched our first concert
(haisy....)

if someone could see inside my heart and felt what i felt you would
now how small it is...

"entahkan kau rasa, apa yang kurasa atau kau tak endah"

a new mission!

2010-12-27T08:45:00.000-08:00

well lately i was thinking
life is too short to be sad and grief at you know what
so i was thinking mayb i want to to something the unexpected
well still searching for it..
and waiting for the approval from the "yang dipertua"
hahahah...
i seriusly do not know what's get in to me..
i want to do something extreme!

later this evening i watch the losing it with jillian
and man this lady have problem
her husband died and she sort of let her and left the burden of parenting to
her daughter
well... what make it interesting for me
is as i looked at her
and all i can see is me
if i do not take control of myself i would becoming like her
so lately i am so thankful to both of my parents for supporting me to loose some weight
well im still in the process.. and wait and see...
i hope...

i still love you jack

2010-12-20T11:55:00.000-08:00

jack i still love you
susah sgt i nak forget about you
kejam sgt i kalo bley lupakan you dlm mase sebulan jack
susah sgt jack i nak lupakan u
smua org ckp dgn i
move on ili.. he doesnt want you anymore
tiap2 malam jack i nanges sbb you
sakit hati i jack tgk ape yang you post kt fb
i x pecaye yg you bley lupekan i sekejap saja nie jack
i tau you mare dkt i lg..
tapi i try everything nak lembutkan hati you balik
tapi hati you keras sgt2 jack
sikit pun you tak ada langsung rase kesian dkt i
smp hati you jack
smp hati you biar i menangis sorong2 teringtkan you
hoping you will text me or even say hye to me
smp hati you biar i rindu dkt you
hanya tuhan saja tau betapa gembiranyer hati i bler u agreed nak jumpe i smlm
tpi lps ape yang i nampk n i dgr
you gembira dgn permpuan lain
smp hati you buat mcm tu dkt i jack
i tau bler you bace nie
or you mungkin tak akan bace benda nie
i berape kali nak cakap
i tak ada sape2 pun dlm hidup i
i plg sdey you langsung tak sedar the reality dpn mate you
bukak mate you jack
bukak telinga you
sudah2 la dgn ego u
yea i mengaku i byk buat salah..
tpi nie smua salah kita berdua bukan i sorang saja
sudah-sudah la org biar i mcm nie
ape you x pernah rindu dkt i?
x pernah terfikir pasal i?
sikit pun tak pernah
you fikir la elok2
and i just hope and pray that you will read this
and one more thing..
please forgive me...
bagi la i pergi dgn tenang nnti
and i x nak bler you dah start sedar and everything will be too late...
i mintak sgt
tlg maafkan i... biar hati i pergi dgn tenang jack....

aku rindu die..

2010-08-26T10:49:00.000-07:00

aku rindu die.. sgt2 rindu

smp sakit dibuatnya..

x makan...

makan kerana terpaksa...

kalo x nnti pitam lg...

minum kerana terpakse...

dah berkerja jugak kerana terpaksa..

aku rindu die... sgt2 rindu...

knape die senyap mcm nie aje..

kalau la die ad text or call aku..

sng hati aku...

xda la sakit mcm nie..

nak buat ape2 pun x larat...

pening lg.. sakit mate lg.. mcm2 la..

letih lg la... pusing kple nie...

kalau la die tahu.....

THE ENDING...

2010-08-22T08:44:00.000-07:00

what ever things that you did to me
i shall closer my eyes and forgive you...
if you keep on being like this then it is up to you...
i shall not say anything as you have been avoiding me...
yes i admit partly it is my fault but however you are being unfair to me
so this is the end...
there will be no more of you and me
it is ME...
i try to talk to you but u wont do it.. so it is fine....
im sorry for everthing that i did and
just let me be...
THE END...

i delivered 4 kittens!

2010-05-11T08:16:00.000-07:00

nak tau x my cat gemok..
pagi td she on labour...
actually smua orang dalam family menunggu and tertanye-tanye la jugak
"biler la gemok nie nak beranak"
skali amik kau! pg td..
yang bestnyer time my sister pg keje la
die nak beranak..
die suke pg kat satu spot kat almari nie...
i dah agak dah die akan pg kat situ..
jd ape lg...
dengan gigih nie balik rumah cepat after hantar along pg lrt
sambil tu berdoa
"jangan la gemok beranak lg(habislah baju aku)
masuk rumah terus selamatkan baju2ku...
and letak kotak die..
you all nak tau x?
kesian sangat gemok tu...
nie seriusly first time tgk ceature beranak and tolong ok..
mule2 tu die pun masuk la dalam kotak and do what she supposed to do la kan.
teran.... and teran... teran lg..
and sampai i nmpk ada mcm fluid keluar..
OMG!!! i x nak tulis how yuckky the feeling is...
ok fine... die teran lg.. then kple 1st baby kuar..
i dah bace mcm2 ayat dah dlm otak nie...
skali tau x gemok die buat ape
die keluar dari kotak tu... yes keluar dari kotak tu...
i call my sister and she was like dun worry just let her b
so i did...
after half an hour i tgk balik dah ada 2...
and my sister call i.. die ckp u kena b with her and ask her to push... she ckp kena ckp kt die u can do it gemok...
pulak dah weyh... dah la mcm haisy.... x bley nak ckp..
so i did.. kesian sgt ngn gemok... gemok teran i pun teran...
the 3rd baby pun lahir secara songsang...
kaki dulu weyh keluar...
mak aii...
panik dah nie... x pe i said... teran gemok...
gemok bley gerak la plak...
aduhai....
last2 keluar jugak.. i pun lega la weyh...
i call my sister minah tu bley gelak...
i dah mcm marathon dah punye peluh....nie dah peluh2 dah ni
die gelak.... kurang hasam btol...
ok la ingtkan dah abis dah la..
skali tgk tgh jilat2 kan anak die...
2 kali pndang tgk mkn placenta anak die...
YES!!! maaaakkkkkaaannn....
terbaek la....
skali baby last dah kuar...
gemok lega...
i double lega ok dari die....
then tggu la die bersihkan anak-anak die...
die pun pindah balik dkt kotak tu...
tpi anak die
die tinggal kan..... terpakse la i amik anak die n ltk dalam tu( i pakai glove yea)
sumpah after tengok that yucckkking labour....
i x lapar langsung!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ape2 pun sangat berbangga dengan gemok jd mummy.....
gemok is just a baby....
kurang ajar kucing itam tu
btw
the first kitten: colour itam tapi kaki die colour putih: stokins
the second kitten: kple die itam: helmet
the third: songsang, very loud cry and the biggest: undecided
last baby: belakang brown colour: undecided jugak....
till then... nnti i upload gambr for the kittens proggress ok y'alll
tatatatta....

may 08 2010

2010-05-07T11:16:00.000-07:00

elllo my fellow bloggers..
kte ada cter sdey nie nak cter..
skrg nie rase mcm nak menjerit pun ada, happy pun x sgt, nangis pun x sure la, sedih pun mayb la..
macam2 la rase actually...
sbnarnyer kte dah puas dah menjage hati org,
kte senyap nie bukan kte mare tpi kte just nak biar things cool dulu,
lgpun kte malas la nak masuk campur hal yg xda kena mengena ngn kte,
sbb nnti kang ada yang x ske..
so better la kte senyap je....
lgpun awak dah besar and kte rase awak lebih pandai untuk handle masalah nie kan?
jangan la salah faham dengan ape yang kte cakap nie,
kte bukan nak mare it just nak bgtau je..
lgpun awak pun penah tego kte kan?
tpi kdng2 pun maaf la yea kte ckp nie...
awak lebihkan org lain..
bukan x suke tpi awak tau x sbb nie la saya rase lonely tau...
saya cube skrg nie ikot je ape yang awak nak,
walaupun saya terpakse sbb saya tau awak x kan agree punye,
jd skrg nie pun kte dah cdey dah awak cerita nie...
x pe la,
biar lah kte jage hati awak, tapi hati kte pandai2 la eyh kte pujuk nnti...
kte x kesah asalkan bley buat awak puas hati...
okayh la sebelum kte menangis nie better kte stop la...
nnti banjir plak tmpt nie...

ok y'all.....

i have no comment....

2010-02-15T09:19:00.000-08:00

hmmm
what can i say anymore.....
say no comment?
i think it is the best words that should be applied in every situation...
but hey...
everybody makes mistakes
and the only way for you to realise it by
experience it by myself
and i frimly means by yourself...
do not compare it to others
as different people faces different problems and
to be truth, what makes each and everyone of us different is
by the way your handle it..
so again, no comment
now we just have move on
and live our life peacefully...
till then....

my banditos!

2010-01-16T08:41:00.000-08:00

ari tu kan..
my cutie bam..
buat suprised kat me..
die belikan i aquarium...
so basically die belikan i
16 ekor ikan..
yeah u heard me...
16 ekor...
10 drpada is ikan gupy..
2 of them ikan colour orange
2 lg mate colour merah( which anem takot ngn dieorg)
2 lg colour biru..
so yeah 16..
nak bagi name mcm agak seperti susah..
plus they all look the same
so i call the my banditos!
but unfortunely...
skrg tggl 8 je..
cdey.... :(

im sorry b... ikan tu mati.. i didnt know what to do...
probably they missed u so much like i did so they choose to commit suicide...
nnti kte beli lg yeah ikan?
im sorry for not taking good care of it...

crushed!!!

2009-12-24T07:28:00.000-08:00

here i am being sick as ever...
weak and could not move anymore...
having someone like he in his own world...
ask him too many questions and make assumption will upset him....
is it hard for u to understand me...
is it?
im just tired to be like this
nothing to say anymore
just nothing!

for your entertainment!

2009-12-23T10:54:00.000-08:00

i just dont know why...
but im loving this song....
eventhough some of you might not agree with me but hey...
i bet if you start listen to the song it would stuck in your mind just like me...
you should give it a try and listen to it...
i promise you it doesnt sound what of you guys thinking about him...
but this is what the industry meant by music bring us together...
btw hw is a talented singer as for me he bring his own identity along with him....
you should listen to it...

RUSSIAN ROULETTE...

2009-12-18T09:00:00.000-08:00

hello
we meet again..
im in my hard times right now..
theres no words to decribes my sadness and depression.
im in my low point right now and just waiting for someone to pull the trigger...
i will be gladly if someone just shoot me in the head right now...
ill always put on a happy face just to pleased everyone else..
deep down inside...
if you ever heard about a song named RUSSIAN ROULETTE...
my situation just like it...... just waiting for someone to just shoot me...
everyone would be easily said be patient about it.... but what about me?
i just don't know how much longer i would keep on hanging on my just absorbing everything..
and frankly it is not easy for me to let it out..
i never felt so stupid in my life and just could not be in control anymore...
i never felt so small and so hurt by it..
the sad thing is everyday i cry but no one hear me...
im tearing up just by expressing this thoughts in my head..
i can't hold it any longer..

what a boring day!

2009-10-17T08:27:00.000-07:00

bosan duduk rumah...
anyway i got to rest dough....
i still wanna go out..
but most of friends xda ka t kl dough...
wondring round...
anyway...
did much to say..
busy as i every be..
tired..
but glad everything is over..
peace y'all....
till again!

pyhscho....

2009-05-27T10:40:00.000-07:00

ape masalah kau nie haa...
nak buat2 cter pasal orang...
bloody helll
stupid useless guy ever...
go mind your own bussiness la...
nak sibuk2 hal org...
if you are like pissed off with me...
just say so la....
nak libatkan org lain for what?
loook at yourself la...
what?
do u think you are the greatest among all ke sampai nak buat mcm tu and calling people that?
benda tu kecik je pun...
if you like can think like an ADULT...
you wont like be acting like that la...
please la ok...
stop like interfering and create story which are not logical in human being's mind ok...
and please la...
dun you have any better things to do then interfering other people bussiness...
by the way that is not your property if you claim it to be that way...
please la...
understand it properly....
x payah la nak menyusahkn orang lain.....

HUNT FOR KANCIL.....

2009-05-19T12:12:00.000-07:00

tragedi melanda
(pengsan ayat ni ili hoi)
anyway..
i rase mcm like having really a awful day because da la i crk kije..
smua mcm nak x nak je..
mostly nak chinese girls..
dun know why..
itu lantak mereka la..
plus ada yang mcm sombong plak tu...
ish...
x kuase nak melayan..
atleast x bley ke nak cakap elok2...
HELLO!!!
that's not even your freaking store pun nak jd sombong mcm tu...
masalah lagi nie...
stress!!
tapi have you like got the experience yang u went to some branded store and like the sales person tu mcm have like this one look kat u yang mcm u can't afford to buy that brand??
HAVE YOU?
pengsan!!
i hate when people does that tau...
x ingin pun la nak beli...
have when people does that..
nie la die bukan bodo sombong tapi berlagak sombong..
haisy...
tgk..
da jauh da terpesong...
then ok la after penat facing the rejection of finding some part time jobs..
i was so stressed up then go hang out with my friend..
ok la on the way mau pulang ke rumah..
ada satu kete nie..
manual confirm...
naik bukit then turun balik....
2 kali ok...
mcm nie... i was driving mcm biase...
memang x expect la orang tu nak kebelakng...
then suddenly die kebelakang!!!
TWO TIMES!!!
i was so panic sbb mmg x expect yang that kancil..
by the way tu kete kancil...
nak kebelakng for two times..
owh yeah...
guess what that car hit me!!!
i cm !@#$$$$$%
abis la aku nie...
punye la kan hoping orang tu turun...
nie TAK!!!
terus je jalan...
nasib baik la xda pape...
tapi no plat la sikit je.....
hehehheeheh..
so kancil biru,.... i'll be hunting u!!!

sampai bile nak maju

2009-05-14T12:42:00.000-07:00

kenape ada sesetengah manusia nie la kan
x tau la sape la kan
yang bijak lg x bley tahan la kan..
owh.. pandai kutuk orang..
asal org lebih sikit je
mule la buat macam2 la
jealous la..
x bley orang lebih sikit la
HELLO!!!
c'mon la ok
nie rezeki masing2 tau
ada yang kat atas ada yang kat bawah..
hidup nie mcm roda.. bukan nyer selalu senang je...
kalo mcm tu pelik la namenyer
tolong la ok...
buang la sikap nak cemburu rezeki orang nie..
jangan nak jadi merepek bley x..
nie smua da besar..
jadi la contoh yang TERBAEK! sikit kat youngsters nie...
jangan la ok bagi dieorg ikot perangai yang amat kolot lg durjana itu...
tlg la ok..
sedar la diri tu sikit...
nie cakap tah pape tah
nie x bley la ape la..
tlg la...
byk lagi benda la bley buat
toksah la nak dok pkr masalah nie...
x keje agaknyer...
whatever it is...
A MATURE ADULT WILL BE ACT LIKE HIS/HER AGE...
AND WEALTHYNESS DO NOT BRING ANY BENEFIT IF YOU DON'T USED IT WELL AND
WISELY!

drama drama drama!

2009-05-14T12:36:00.000-07:00

hidup nie penuh sgt dgn "drama"
ada yang ok..
ada yang x ok.
ada yang sakit
yang shat
terlebih sihat pun ada..
knape terkeluarnya ayat manusia ini x pernah puas?
p/s: puas erti kate lain.. tu ada yang pkr lain nie ( GATAL!)
ape2 pun kte patut tanye diri nie
kemana mau pergi
ape yang nak dcapai
ape yang nak ada dalam mase akan datang?
nak kawin or single?
nak kaya @ sederhana?
nak senang atau susah..
fikir la sendri
ikot la badn n pemikiran masing2

a WISH upon a blog!

2009-05-13T11:29:00.000-07:00

why do people change?
is it true that time makes people change?
is it really a fact or just a phase of words?
is it the tie of friendship just going to be end by ignoring each other?
is we become like this for somebody else?
why don't we settle it nicely?
and talk..
why must choose ignorance as a solution?
are you the type of person who appreciate precious time n memories?
why dont you..
as for me..
i do missed a lot of things in my past..
and frankly to say it is hard for me to move on..
mayb i need some time or mayb i just dont want to...
i wish thing will get back to as they were before..
but yet again LIFE!!
full with suprises!!
all i know is that i'm tired of it...
sometimes i think so hard sometimes it is just another part of me who simply dreaming!!
hahahahah....
but all i'm saying that if i was granted one wish
and what i wish for is that evrything wont be soooo awkward and different...
i wish everbody is happy and accept each other weaknesses..
no more drama.. tears.. fighting, arguing..
haisy...
just hope that it gonna end soon
and i mean Fast!

LOVE <3
elai

fed up.

2009-04-18T01:02:00.000-07:00

why people are running away from me..
i miss alot of my best friends...
have some argument here and there but yet
we didn't come into a conclusion..
we just let it be..
but for how long???
i get fed up of this things..
makes me wonder if i had done anything that is so badly that i deserved to face this kind of fate..
i really miss my friends...
i don't hang out like i used too...
yesterday i think i sort off burst out in the open ( tooo much shisha)
i was like soo high until i could not remember what i was mumbling about..
today, i sort off not in the goood mood to do anything..
did not like to stdy, i get angry easily, get fed up...
and damn right i fed up..
i fed up with people's egonesss...
i fed up with people who then to get angry with just with a small things..
i fed up with people who then to be good but they are not...
i fed with all of it...
my goodness how could you be in this kind of situation where evry negative thought been released towards you....
WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVED THIS!!!!!!!
enough already......
stop thinking about yourself and if you want to do anything please try to put yourself in other people's shoe..
think for once how would they fell inside...
grow up...
please!

long way ahead!!

2009-03-25T09:29:00.000-07:00

hey sape2 yang bace nie...
anyway...
sorry sbb x update..
sebab BUZY la lately nie...
masuk tmpt baru...
so agak la mcm hectic skrg nie...
pdhal nak final dah pun skrg nie...
huhuhuhu.....
skrg nie tgh kecut sgt la perut!
huhuhuhu...
wish me luck for dis sem k?

gara-gara nak renew passport..

2008-12-17T05:51:00.000-08:00

the day before...
i have to renew passport...
sbb we are goin for a holiday..
so my lovely dad said...
"go n renew your passport"
so the day before i kena la nak amik gambar kan..
ok fine...
pg la mlm tu...
dah la dgn malam tu.. smua benda nak kena buat..
hantar ni la..
amik tu la ape
ok...
so the next morning..
i pg with my sis..
n ian n nell..
nell nak tukar her ic...
alang2 die pun ikot( ian on the hand saje je nak menyebuk n kacau org)
so ok..
nell buat ic- ian teman..
i pg buat passport..
then i go to the counter..
skali selamba aje that x tau la nak bgtau name ape...
nie gambr amik balik saya x nak gambar nie...
u know how fucking mad i am...
pdhal org ape...
then she ask for my ic..
then die ckp lg...
i x bley bace ic u..'
tlg buat baru!!!
what???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
r u kidding me???
dah la ramai i...
i mase tu mmg dah la maki org tu dah...
bodo!!!
stupid chip!!!
and the best part nie...
org tu bley tanye...
u tau x chip u x bley read???
HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DO I LOOK LIKE I KNOW WHY MY CHIP DIDN'T WORK????
selamba aje cakap...
u kena buat baru eyh???
pukimak la weyh...
then i pun mcm dah pissed off gler2...
then dgn x malunyer...
i went to ian n nell then i told everthing...
bodo!!!
stupid chip!!!!!
so i kena la buat....
everythingz!!!!
nasib baik i ada teman...
kalo x...
i'll be mad like hell....
bodo!!!
da la gmbr da cantik2 kena renew lg!!!
now my stupid ic is so freaking buruk n besar ok!!!
stupid ic...
stupid picture!!!!!
meyusahkan org!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
test la dulu before nak bg org pakai!!!
bodo!!! bodo!!! bodo!!!!
i almost give up my vacation bcause of this stupid ic!!!
lain kali test dulu the chip!!
jgn nak meyusahkn org....

bla bla...

2008-11-04T09:17:00.000-08:00

i x tau la nak cakap ape skrg..
i'm in the mood where all i need is myself and
honestly...
i dun need anyone else...
sorry for all the troubles..
it just i need me...
only me...

hesh!!!

2008-11-02T04:02:00.000-08:00

why is it making choices is so freekin hard!!!
bencinyer...
bler u dah elok2 ngn decision u, datang lagi satu masalah...
eeee....
y is it life is so complicated!!..
benci la jadi mcm nie...
better u be alone...
and duduk aje kt rumah without involving other people..
bencinyer!!
kang kalo da mcm nie kate anti-social plak...
huhuhuhuu...
you see what i mean?
x abis sATU2 masalah dtg...
kdg2 belum sempat nak tarik nafas..
dtg lg satu...
y is it so hard...
huhuhuhuu...
benci la...
penat and depressed...
hate my life...
bencinyer..
but i love dosh!!!!
cymel!!!
love u dosh!!

buying a baby rabbit

2008-10-31T04:03:00.000-07:00

x tau la mane datang idea nie la kan..
tbe2 aje nak bela rabbit...
i dun know la..
mayb i felt lonely...
and i guess the cute little rabbit will accompany me kan...
dulu i had 3 of rabbits but they die..
mine which black and white
and the cool part is kaki die ada 3 aje...
the sad part is that i lupe nak bgi makan sbb mase tu kan i mcm benggong la kan..
kecik lagi what did u expect la kan...
i always depend kat my sister...
that's why la the rabbit die...
my sister was freeking mad at me...
i felt guilty la at that time...
sape x la kan...
since that incident, my mum ckp no more rabbit...
tapi tu cter mase kecik..
nie dah besar??
i'm trying to ask my mum whether i can have one or not...
wish me luck k?

A letter for jack...

2008-10-30T21:43:00.000-07:00

dearest jack...
i'm so sorry for doing this towards u...
i bukan sengaja aje nak buat benda nie kt u..
u'll thank u later...
it's very hard for me to explain y i did this so suddenly...
actually i have been thinking about it for quite a while...
i buat nie bukan for myself..
but most of it for u..
mayb u don't get the picture yet..
but one day..
you will understand what am i trying to do...
i bukannyer nak ditch u mcm tu aje...
we could be friends it just so hard on me that
i takot the way i'm being friends with u
takot u hope on me...
i'm so sorry for doing this n posting the blog to u..
but i had no other choice...
i'm really sorry...
~ili~

my familia...

2008-10-12T08:55:00.000-07:00

Family picture

that me the one in purple( yea la every year mesti lain dr yg lain)

my dad ckp baik tangkap gmbr kt masjid....

my mum and dad..

(phaez said they look cute together... i agree)

adinda sekalian

ili atira(left), ili amira(center, muke cacat abit), n iliyas ariefin(the "only" boy)

my besties

ian ebrizal and nelly...

farhan..

stop forcing me!!

2008-10-12T08:49:00.000-07:00

ok...
here is a situation..
do u agree that we are not supposed to force someone to like other person..
right??
it is our choice to choose who we want to be love right?
x kesa la kalo u ckp that guy to baik and all....
it's about choice!
please ok...
stop forcing me...
i dun like it..
AND please ok...
stop pretending...
imagine u in my situation...
u bley la put on happy face and all...
i ok yang jd "mangse"...
please...
stop right now.....

I fall in love with dis guy

2008-10-08T04:33:00.000-07:00

i dun know which one is better...
there's this song that really make me fall for him...
i mean seriously...
he is so sweet...
the song goes like this..
he alreaDY broke up with his gf...
(p/s: for me brake up is really shitty!!)
anyway..
he sanggup tu tgu the gf kt the corner of the street with her picture
and ask everyone if they penah jumpe that gurl...
the reason why the waited there because he said that is the first place they met each other..
so when that gurl wonder about him..
he will be at the first place they had met..
gler man..
he wait and waited for the gurl to show up..
and eventually
the gurl x show up!!!
seriously that gurl so stupid!!
he is like all over the news..
clearly she had move on and forget about that guy...
KESIANNNNYYYERRRRR......
i was like gler sweet mamat nie....
cair aje...
if someone do that to me..
i dun know what to do...
(well obviously i'm touched la kan)
hmmm....
anyway...
dude..
no worries man..
i'm all yours!!!
hahahahahahahahaha!!!!

raya!!

2008-10-08T04:22:00.000-07:00

selamat hari raya...
well...
actually it's been a week that muslims celebrating raya...
and raya...
raya...
what could i say more??
duit raya?
ok la...
so far murah la rezeki tahun nie..
amin...
first day raya...
satu family beraya sakan..
pgi2 aje dh bgun and excited for raya...
then go visiting relatives..
quite fun actually..
makan..
haiyo!!!
major problem skrg nie..
kena control gler2...
so far x da la sakit perut teruk2 mcm last year...
then later that evening..
pg visit kubur arwah my aunty and my tok...
quite syahdu la actually...
then ptg tu pg rumah my dad..
i dun know what to say...
it's quite diff there..
tgk katil arwah pun mcm ingt2 lagi kt die...
yea la...
baru berapa bulan aje kan arwah pergi...
quite diffrnt la..
i pity to my dad...
cdey la when u look at him that u already knew that he misses arwah...
nothing much happen to me..
quite simple and nice...
no drama and sickness that i felt dis year...
anyway HAPPY RAYA!!

BBQ NIGHTS!!!

2008-09-26T23:31:00.000-07:00

on the end of august if i'm not mistaken..
i had a bbq party kindda off isshh at my frenz or he like evryone clld " my husband"
because everywhere i go he's with me.
so basically yeah..
ok back to the party..
i had fun on that day.. where we sang, eating.. laughing.. eating again.. makan lg dan lg.. dan gelak lg..
owh..
and lastly we took some pictures.. not some.. alot!! and dis guys yang sgt bijak itu.. i dun know what is wrong with them.. masuk air kot due to mandi pool lame sgt..
took pictures like jumping around.. everyone had the best time of their life(xda la life.. saje nk lebih2) but it was so fun..
cymel2 aje smua.

and yesterday also i had bbq nights...quite fun but x ramai la jugak tapi best...
i had fun!!
i got to meet my friends yang dah lame x jumpe... konon!!
hahaahahaha

if only you know about this..

2008-09-24T05:56:00.000-07:00

i know it's hard for u to make decision when u are caught in the middle...
i know it's hard for u to choose between the reality and someone that u know,
deep down in your heart that people would blame for u loving her..
i know it's hard for u to choose between your friends and her..
i know how painful it is when u have to let someone u go for another person..
i understand how it feel when u just have to accept the faith of life..
i know how it feel when u have to fake urself that things are fine
i know that you are afraid to take the risks of losing your friends and your love ones..
i know how it feels when you have to watch her with someelse..
i know how it feels when when your intention is not to hurt her..
i know how it feels when she just give up on u...
i know how it feels when she decided to push you away from her life...
i know how it feels when she also just have to pretend that she's ok with the situation..
and i know also that she badly hurt inside..
i know also how it feels when she have to put on a smile when the facts is she falls into a deep black hole..
i know that she's tired of pretending anymore...
i know that she was badly crush and hurt just because of u..
i know that she doesn't understand how you could easily forget about her..
and...
i know that she still cared about u..
she just letting you go because of you..
she doesn't want you to loose your friends and especially your loved ones..
she doesn't want you to feel tired of pretending anymore..
she doesn't want you to feel confused and felt like a burden for loving her..
she just want you to feel happy with your life...
she just want to watch you smile and laugh again..
for her is more than enough of just to watch from far away..
she doesn't want you to cry anymore because she knows how painful it is..
she's glad that for knowing you and especially loving you
all she want to said is just..
if only you know about this...

happy bithday ili!!!

2008-09-15T22:53:00.000-07:00

when it comes to a new year
the year that i waited with full excitment n kesabaran yg teramat sgt.....
adalah SEPTEMBER!!!
september is my birthday..
on the 11th to be specific....
yea... 11 september n xda kena mengena ngn runtuhnyer bangunan WTC...
and tu bukan birthday present frm sape2 la...

ok back to the birthday celebration..
i celebrate it with of course la kan my friends..
but was sad because my close friends xda...
huu.. huu..huuu....
miss mereka.. mereka...
ok...
and then bler dh smp 12 o'clock...
suddenly...
kwn2 saye yg bijak lg berguna itu.....
MENYANYI birthday song infront the whole people in that restaurant...
tau x betapa malunyer nk ltk muke nie....
malu gler deyh...
but frankly jarang orang nyanyi for me mcm that night...
but it was fun!!!
huuuu......
and friends also sang me a bithday song..
only it was on the phone la...
tapi i ske la....
and at the end of the day i got a birthday present frm a friend of mine
which at that time...
he was in DUNGUN...
he gave me...

BOBO

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ILI....

fear of computers!

2008-09-15T04:11:00.000-07:00

aaa.. yesh..
computers...
some people said that computers is an intelligent "devices"...
well for me is NOT!!!
it's so complicated and menyusahkn org....
damn i hate computers...
it just a simple button just save that documents...
suddenly...
owh ya i decided to delete ur documents...
(which i have submit day after tomorrow)
i was freaking panic....
and started to call anyone...
i feel like my world going to end...
lucky i had backup...
see...
it's prove that computers are not intelligent and full with viruses...

salutation!

2008-09-14T07:59:00.000-07:00

This is me...

where i can share my experience to the viewers who have the time to read my blog....

"ching ching"

nothing much i can say about it...

all i can say that we as human being have to make choices in our life...

and i mean a lot of choices...

some say it hard n some say it easy as a b c...

if u ask me...

life??

have pros and cons where it is so complicated...

and a very hard... and stupid... and sometimes make u sick....

but however a very descent person told that all of this matter it just colours of life......