suatu masa

a very historic song for me
he once listen to this song during the early days
what is wrong with me
i taught im strong enough..
butafter read the previous letters that he wrote to me...
tears pouring out...
im not prepared for this...
what had happened to me and us
it still hurt and sad..
it's hurt...
put on a happy face just to pleased everyone...
not to make everyone worried...
eveeryday i cried

" dengarkanlah lagu and panggilan ku untuk mu"
(wish you would hear it...)

"angin lalu kau sampaikan, rasa rindu yang membara kepada nya"
(please do....)

it hurt to see and when through this...
when you said im strong person
no i am not how would be so sure?
i cried listen to this song when we watched our first concert
(haisy....)

if someone could see inside my heart and felt what i felt you would
now how small it is...

"entahkan kau rasa, apa yang kurasa atau kau tak endah"

a new mission!

well lately i was thinking
life is too short to be sad and grief at you know what
so i was thinking mayb i want to to something the unexpected
well still searching for it..
and waiting for the approval from the "yang dipertua"
hahahah...
i seriusly do not know what's get in to me..
i want to do something extreme!

later this evening i watch the losing it with jillian
and man this lady have problem
her husband died and she sort of let her and left the burden of parenting to
her daughter
well... what make it interesting for me
is as i looked at her
and all i can see is me
if i do not take control of myself i would becoming like her
so lately i am so thankful to both of my parents for supporting me to loose some weight
well im still in the process.. and wait and see...
i hope...

i still love you jack

jack i still love you
susah sgt i nak forget about you
kejam sgt i kalo bley lupakan you dlm mase sebulan jack
susah sgt jack i nak lupakan u
smua org ckp dgn i
move on ili.. he doesnt want you anymore
tiap2 malam jack i nanges sbb you
sakit hati i jack tgk ape yang you post kt fb
i x pecaye yg you bley lupekan i sekejap saja nie jack
i tau you mare dkt i lg..
tapi i try everything nak lembutkan hati you balik
tapi hati you keras sgt2 jack
sikit pun you tak ada langsung rase kesian dkt i
smp hati you jack
smp hati you biar i menangis sorong2 teringtkan you
hoping you will text me or even say hye to me
smp hati you biar i rindu dkt you
hanya tuhan saja tau betapa gembiranyer hati i bler u agreed nak jumpe i smlm
tpi lps ape yang i nampk n i dgr
you gembira dgn permpuan lain
smp hati you buat mcm tu dkt i jack
i tau bler you bace nie
or you mungkin tak akan bace benda nie
i berape kali nak cakap
i tak ada sape2 pun dlm hidup i
i plg sdey you langsung tak sedar the reality dpn mate you
bukak mate you jack
bukak telinga you
sudah2 la dgn ego u
yea i mengaku i byk buat salah..
tpi nie smua salah kita berdua bukan i sorang saja
sudah-sudah la org biar i mcm nie
ape you x pernah rindu dkt i?
x pernah terfikir pasal i?
sikit pun tak pernah
you fikir la elok2
and i just hope and pray that you will read this
and one more thing..
please forgive me...
bagi la i pergi dgn tenang nnti
and i x nak bler you dah start sedar and everything will be too late...
i mintak sgt
tlg maafkan i... biar hati i pergi dgn tenang jack....